Yes, We're Pregnant!!!

Feeling so extremely blessed to be expecting! And so quick too! I removed my birth control just about a month and a half ago. We officially got the clarification that I am in fact pregnant 2 days ago. Josh was ecstatic, I was in shock. The past few weeks I have been back and forth on whether or not I thought I was crazy that I was feeling symptoms. Then I didn't want to be disappointed if I wasn't so I had almost convinced myself I wasn't even when I knew I was almost positive I was after getting a very faint line on a test a week ago. So now I'm just working on believing it. ;) My due date will be around Sept 11th I believe.

I've already switched to the prenatal vitamins and finding out has motivated me to start going to the gym. After all, I can get in on post for free now (yay). We've already researched insurance coverage and I'm pretty sure we have decided where I am going to deliver if everything pans out as hoped. Orientation is next Friday.

Crazy to think I'm going to do this again. I'm so excited for the whole experience (I've been baby hungry for over a year now). But at the same time really nervous...

One worry I have is if whether or not Josh will get to be here through the pregnancy and be present for the birth. But that is life in the military. And if we waited till the "right time" that time would never come. Now seemed as good a time as any. Keeping our fingers crossed!

After I had MJ, like literally RIGHT after I had her. I said, "I am never doing that again!" Here I am... pregnant, talking about having the baby natural in a birthing center. I refuse if at all possible to stay in the hospital. I wouldn't say my experience with the boys births were horrible but they weren't great. I was happy to have my baby boy but there is a lot I would change! I was nervous to have MaryJane but I was going into unknown territory, even with already having 2 babies and all the research I did. Now that I know what to expect... I'm nervous. lol. Everything was so perfect with her birth it just hurt! But I think I'll be able to power through it even better this time! :)

I can't wait to see what cute little we can make!! :) We thought we would make it fun and have decided to not find out what we are having. It might be tempting at times but we both love surprises. It will make that moment even more magical! I would love it if I could give Josh a boy to pass on his name to but a girl would be just fine! :) You figure we already have 2 of each so what's the difference. The crappy part is I wasn't planning on having more kids so I've given away pretty much everything baby, so we will be starting over regardless. That goes for everything maternity as well.

The kids are all very curious as to how everything works. Especially Jack and MJ. We have been watching animated videos on how the baby grows and what it looks like at different stages. They have been requesting to see pictures of themselves as babies and what I looked like pregnant with each of them. They keep asking when the baby is going to come out. I'm thinking they will have the hardest time waiting. Especially not knowing if it's a girl or a boy. Gage and Jack want a boy, MJ wants a girl, Kensey just wants a baby. At first when we asked the kids how they would feel about having a baby Jackson said, "no way!" When I told them I thought I might be pregnant about a week ago Gage and MJ were excited but the look on Jackson's face was priceless. I wish I had it on video! He's always been excepting yet apposed to the idea. When I ask why he says I dunno. I asked him if he is afraid the baby will take away his attention and it seems as though that just might be it.

I've always wanted my kids really close together so that they could grow up together. Having a sister myself that is 13 years older than me I don't have many memories of her as a small child, then she was married and moved out before I was out of grade school. My 3 kids are all less than 2 years apart. MJ is lucky to have Kensey who is 9 months younger than her. This baby will be almost 4 years younger than our youngest and over 8 years younger than our oldest so it will be a bit different for me. But I'm beginning to understand why parents sometimes wait to have more kids. To see the excitement in the kids over a new baby is something I will never forget. Gage isn't quite old enough for us to benefit from a live in baby sitter ;) but I can already tell he will be so helpful. MJ and Kensey are such little mommies (MJ talks about carrying the baby around all the time). Jackson probably won't ever leave the baby alone talking to him/her in his little soft baby voice he does. I'm so excited to see all the kids together fighting over who gets to push the stroller. ;)

Josh is always having new experiences being he wasn't in my kids lives till MJ was almost 2 and not a full time parent till just 5 months ago. And Kensey moved when she was only 6 months old. But I gotta say how well he has done adjusting. He's a great parent and roll model! All the kids just love him to pieces! He's a natural! ;) I love him more every day. He's an amazing father and husband! This baby just ties our family together. Makes me feel so much more complete! <3